there was a moment
when i decided to save myself.
when i thought: enough.
when i realized that being kind to myself
did not mean
basing decisions off convenience
and there is no love without challenge
no reward without bravery
and as i suddenly decided to attack everything that scared me
my terror evaporated and melted into the dewy sponge of my past
and my phantom fear was just a stain in my memories
and I’m soaring.